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Oh I know. There's a reason I stopped listening to her a couple of years ago but she's still my sister so...kinda have to deal with it. [He puts the coffee cup down finally now that it's empty, biting on his lip a little bit.] I love her but she's absolutely batshit sometimes.

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Sharpay, right? [ He'll take note.

Wait a second, why will he take note? Ryan's just a friend. What the fuck, Starchild? ] Sooo glad I'm the an only child. Still--can't really be that bad, can it? I mean you're on top of your game, you dress well, you're in New York for dance... That's pretty good, if you ask me.

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Um. [That same wry grin.] She's my twin and I got a scholarship to Juilliard but she didn't and then she didn't talk to me for the entire month of June. I guess you could call that pretty good.

Still...New York's New York. Things are way better here than they would be back there so maybe you're right. [...wait.] Did you just appreciate my fashion sense?

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Yeah, you look good. Why are you surprised? [ He's still sort of laughing but there's one word that's still ringing in his mind. So, still beaming, he looks Ryan dead in the face: ]

I'm sorry, what was that last bit?

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Just am. [Because people usually don't flat-out say so, that's why.

...oh god he actually didn't know. Ryan's not sure if it came up the night they met (it must not have been, or Elliot didn't take him seriously) but he's sure as shit taking Ryan seriously now and it's kind of scary. He blinks almost innocently, looking like he's struggling to remember what he just said.]

Um...Shar didn't talk to me for a month because I got a scholarship to Juilliard and she didn't?

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That's, uh. Weird because I thought you said you had a scholarship.

[ Elliot's beginning to think he's being lied to. ]

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That's because I did say that. Because it's how things happened. The scholarship reps were only supposed to pick one of us but they couldn't choose between me and my best friend, so...they picked both of us which is half the reason Sharpay's probably still sorta mad in the first place.

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You were serious.

[ Elliot can't begin to explain the wave of emotion that that sentence, said so casually, hits.

This kid is good. This kid is so good they make an exception for him, a scholarhip is given to him, presumably full ride. Julliard. The hardest school to get into in the universe just walked up and said 'this guy's in'?

That's good. That's very good. Because Elliot applied for Julliard three times and got asked to audition only once. Elliot couldn't even get to the school one step below it, NYADA. Ryan was very, very good.

...But a huge part of him takes that the other way: Ryan's good, sure, but it's that Elliot's bad that he can't get in. ]

That's--I mean that's insane! You actually got in! That's like a one-way ticket to being extremely successful!

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[Though the words sound sincere, Ryan's not entirely sure how to respond to them. He's not relaxing by any means, still a little guarded as he gauges Elliot's reaction to the news.

He really, really didn't know. Or rather he didn't believe him and he's not sure which circumstance is worse. He just lets Elliot finish before slowly nodding, looking at his hands instead.]

...I know. [The look on his face is a little bit regretful but it's mostly proud. He busted his ass to get to Juilliard. He choreographed an entire show by himself while working on stuff for his classes and while dealing with twelve different personal crisises. Ryan Evans had flipped his senior year the middle finger and still made it out without hating anybody and having the best year of his life. Still. Juilliard is insanely hard to get into and he knows how this must look.

He got a free hand-out. He didn't even have to audition, they just watched the show and decided that he was good enough to study at their school. He looks up finally, grin now much smaller and a little more subdued.] It's both the most amazing and terrifying experience of my life, but like you said, it's a one-way ticket. I couldn't go back even if I wanted to.

...that's why I hate my dorms and why I had a curfew and why I was getting up at the asscrack of dawn to get ready for classes at 8am. I'm working for what I want. Is that really so bad?

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[ He's jealous, but he really is genuinely impressed. Elliot's just glad he's able to separate those two emotions, thanks to two months backpacking in India and finally getting his head out his ass.

It just dawns on him why, though, they made an exception for this kid. He's hungry, he's hungry and he needs it and he's hungrier than the others for it. Elliot likes that, loves it, even. It's just that he's still floored. ]

No. [ He says after a few beats ]. I think that shows how much you want it.

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[That much is true and he relaxes again. It's probably easier now to see what causes him to tense and what causes him to breathe easier around Elliot but he's still not entirely making eye contact. This is a super personal discussion that he's not even sure he should be having, but he's not about to stop either. He has to explain.

For some reason, he has to have Elliot's approval and make sure he's not upset or think he's weird or think he didn't earn this himself.]

...I've known I wanted to be on Broadway since I was three or four. Shar and I both do. We've been taking singing lessons since then and we took dance lessons for a long time together. I kept going when Shar decided to focus on her singing instead. We've been in 17 musicals together since kindergarten basically, 18 if you count the one our class put together for our senior year.

That's...um. That's actually how Kelsi and I got the scholarships. There were four of us nominated for one scholarship and so Kels wrote the whole show, I choreographed everything, and Sharpay and Troy were two of our actors. Anyway so I was putting together the whole show and volunteering at this dance academy I used to take lessons from teaching kids jazz two days a week on top of my normal homework and I'm still sort of surprised I didn't have a nervous breakdown.

But this is all I can see myself doing and it sounds stupid and impractical not to have another goal in case this doesn't work but I'm going to make it work. That sounds crazy, I know, but I'm not going to stop until I catch my dream and stomp the everliving fuck out of it and skyrocket to be successful.

[...waaaay to be dramatic, Ry. Let's just sip coffee--oh shit it's still empty. Goddamnit.]

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[ Elliot's smile is gentle, if strangely reserved. He's happy about it--loves what's happening--he's proud of Ryan, even if he's just some dude he gave a handy to after dragging him around.

It's jealousy, and he's trying to deal with it. He'll meditate, dos ome yoga, reflect on him being selfish like he always does. ]

You're a fighter. That's gonna be good, because you're going to be told no more times than yes. Trust me.

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[He just gives him another skeptical look before he actually laughs in response.]

I don't know if I've ever been told no in my life. [Which is a lie because thank you Sharpay, and thank you Chad, probably.] This should be fun.

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It's not. [ He's not trying to be mean, and he makes sure he gets Ryan to look him in the eye so he can soften his gaze pointedly. ] It's not going to get any better each time people say no, either.

Of course, it makes you a stronger person. That's all you'll have to remember. [ And he grabs the coffee mug, winks, and goes back to the counter to refill it. ]

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[He opens his mouth to protest but closes it again when he catches Elliot's look. He gets it...he really gets it but at the same time he can't help but think that Elliot's completely 100% wrong. Instead he just sighs quietly as he waits for him to return with the coffee.

Eventually though he raises his voice a little to carry toward the counter.]

Trying to tell me I'm not a strong person as it is?